Leland has been on the new protocol since Wednesday night. He has very little energy, and feels a little sick part of the time, but we are going for his walks three times per day faithfully, and he is eating well. So all in all, a blessing as he is not having cancer pain. We can deal with tired! It means his body is working to heal, and the new "cancer kicker" is working.
Sometimes I almost think we will wake up from this, and it will have been a bad dream, but no, it is very real. How do people do this without God in their lives, without being able to trust Him to work all things out for them? I could not do it without knowing God. The pitbull of anxiety, dread and fear shakes one's soul to the uttermost; grief creeps in unbidden and uncontrolled. Then the sunshine of God's presence spreads it's rays over the darkness and peace takes the place of grief, anxiety, fear and projection into a dark future. What a wonderful gift! Jesus, The Prince of Peace, Prince of inner peace.
Amen to that! (referring to the last sentence or two) This journey you are on... is so much like those walks you are taking daily... they happen, one step at a time. Sometimes the way is smooth, sometimes it is rocky... sometimes in sunshine, sometimes in rain... and sometimes it's just overcast....and gray.....but thank God! we have a Savior who's presence does send His Son Shine to fill in the shadows and chase away the rain! Thinking of you guys daily... even when I don't call and "bug" you :D
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